First, your emotions and concerns are quite normal for a young person. It might be comforting to know (perhaps not) that the boy could have been as confused as you were, but didn�t have the capacity to express himself adequately and instead allowed his own frustration to pass on to you.
It�s fascinating how our minds, instincts and bodies have been made to respond to moments that are �right.� Had you both set aside the nervousness of what to do, what everyone else does and what each of you expects the other to do, and replaced it with simple tenderness, you may have found that things came out quite differently.
The idea of warm embraces, cuddles, spooning and gentle caresses are highly underrated by today�s youth. Much of this comes from lack of experience and, if I may, a shifting paradigm where people are more �me me� focused, instead of the act and art of giving to others.
By no means should you have trepidation over your physical intimacy. May I offer a thought that through gentleness, caresses, a coming to know one another, will naturally lead to a greater understanding of one another�s needs and desires. It is then when those glowing embers of youthful discovery will move to the pulsating flames of passion.
I hope this provided a modicum of positive thought for you.
Fr Bill