Is there something wrong with me ?

[Glidr]

I'm a 33 year old man who has been married for 5 years and I have two beautiful children. I told my wife I was sexually abused by another boy when I was eight years old.

The thing is, I've started to wear womens g-strings ( just the plain black ones, nothing frilly..lol )and womens tight jeans, I've also started to get into the " emo " look. I've had several piercings and died my hair black and had an " emo " hair cut.

My wife accepts all of these things ( except she won't let me wear the jeans outside ) which I understand as I don't want to embarrass her.

She asked me if I was gay, I told her no as I had a homosexual experience a few years ago as I thought I may have been, I did not enjoy this experience and I am in no way attracted to men.

For the first time in my life i feel happy and confident with who I am. I've heard that a lot of gay emo guys wear womens underwear and womens jeans.

I've been bullied and made to feel like a freak all of my life. I had very physically abusive mother and step father and at one point when I was 10 my mother put a knife to my throat. I guess what I want to know is, am I a freak or a pervert just because the clothes I wear are not " traditionally male " ?

[sqad617]

Good morning kitesurfer how is the Far East today?

[Woody1983]

Hi

Have you thought about councilling?

If you are happy doing what you are doing then thats great but I would be really worried if my husband started doing that when he hadnt done before.

It sounds like you have had it really tough, your wife sounds lovely and supportive.

I would definatly see a councillor, they might be able to help you see why you are doing it.

Good luck. x

[sqad617]

woody....c'mon....it's a wind-up!

[Woody1983]

Oh! How nasty is that?!

x

[sqad617]

woody.....my answer or his wind up?

[Glidr]

I've rang the doctor this morning to see about a councilor, my wife already suggested this and I agreed. It's a shame people think this is a wind up, I assure you it's not, I just wanted some genuine opinions on what I should do as I don't want to hurt my wife or my kids. God I feel like a complete failure.

[Gormless]

What if it isn't a wind-up?

How would you like it?

[Woody1983]

His wind up.... how sad though.

[redcrx]

youre too old to be an emo,
how about goth?

[Glidr]

I actually created this account this morning as I didn't want to use my main account on here.

[sg]

Unfortunately I think you'll be on a waiting list for about a year before you get any councelling.

[Glidr]

crx, yeah your probably right aboutme being too old to be emo, but I don't know if I'm goth, I don't wear black nail varnish or black eyeliner..lol but I do like the goth look. I don't know, i'm just really confused and stuff.

[redcrx]

why not try glam rock.

have you got enough hair??

[Glidr]

I just don't want to embarrass my wife and I just want to know what's wrong with me, if anything.

[sqad617]

gormless...look at the post, content, grammar, phraseolgy, replies and use name..........kitesurfer and now Glidr.

Where would your money go Gormless?

[Glidr]

redcrx, I hate glamrock, besides my hair is short at the back and long at the front, my bangs are pretty long too. But no mate, I hate glam rock.

[obNOXious]

If it is a wind up then yes there's something the matter with you, if not then no there isn't. Simple really;-)

[Glidr]

recrx, I don't mean to be rude, but wtf has glamrock got to do with what I'm asking ?

[tamborine]

You're lucky indeed that your wife supports your antics....albeit for the welfare of both your children.

Try to rear your children the way you would have wished to be reared. Protect them from the dangers you encountered in the past and those in their future.

When your children are secure and mature you can then explore your diversities.....until then, your life must centre on your progeny.

[Gormless]

I wouldn't worry about the thongs, I wear them too (no VPL), I'd be a bit bothered about the womens' jeans however. You don't sound at all freakish to me, just in touch with the feminine aspects of your character.