depressed

[carliex]

everyone is always telling me how good a mum i am, saying my baby is always clean, happy and very looked after, but they dont really know how i feel! i dont want her anymore but it hurts me so much to say it! she hits me when i pick her up n pushes me away from her, she screams n paddys allll the time! i feel like shes turning into one of those children that people dont invite places! when she screams n paddys i put her in her cot n leave her as i was told to but doesnt help jst stresses me out even more. i get up in the morining feelin happy and ready to goout and do something, but after an hour of bein with my 10months old im depressed and dont leave the houe for days! i feel like i dont love her and that idont want her anymore, im on anti depressents that worked at first but not anymore! i jst dont no what to do!

[ummmm]

Tricky.

It could be post natal depression. I'd go back to your doctor asap and get your medication reviewed.

Loads of mothers go through these kinds of feelings so don't think it's just you. They just don't admit it.

[pericat]

Ummmm is right - go to your doctor - do not be ashamed of how you feel the doctor will have seen it all and more before

[redcrx]

Carlie,
please call your health visitor or GP today! Let them know exactly how you are feeling, they can help. It may be that you need more than just the drugs theyve given you

Your baby will be picking up on how you feel, if you are stressed then things will be difficult. Try and go out, all parents have babies who scream and kick off when out occaionally, we all know how it feels when that happens and it can feel like the whole world is staring and making judgements but Im sure youd find that the majority are sympathising.

Also try posting here, the 2 CLs are lovely ladies and the support there and here will help

http://messageboards....ge.co.uk/iv-ukpbcwpnd

[k8bailey]

Hi Carlie, I'm sorry to hear that you're still not feeling better, but you've been through a lot, so it will take time! I hope you've spoken to you're GP again by now, as they are probably in the best position to be able to help you right now.

My daughter is 16 months and I've been through a similar stage with her, where I would wake up feeling good and then after half an hour with her, I wanted to go back to bed because I felt so fed up - It's not her fault though, she was bored, and the worse I felt the more she seemed to act up. She used to be horrible to me for days and days on end, she'd do nothing but whinge, and I felt like a failure, then one day I had to go and visit my grandmother, my daughter was a nightmare that morning, it took me hours to get us both ready to leave the house, then as soon as we got there she was an angel - the point to my story? a change of scenery works wonders!

I know its really hard, but if you can force yourself to go out somewhere every day, it really will be worth it, park, shops, playgroup etc. On our laziest days we just walk around the block - my little one could walk at 10 months, so we used to just walk to the end of the street and back (very slowly), but it made me feel like we'd done something, and it broke the day up for her too.

Do you have anyone who helps out so that you can have a bit of time to yourself? Or just someone to talk to? There is help out there please go back to your GP or HV.

Take care k8.x

[carliex]

thankyou for our answers, i am goin to see my doctor again today but im having a good day today as i got a full nites sleep last night while my daughter was at daddys, so its not to hard to explain how i was feeling n how i wil probs feel again by 2moro. I dont really have anyone to help me out lilies dad takes her 1 night aweek when he feels like it and my parent work all the time, i have a best friend who has just had a baby hes now 10weeks and she askes me to go round the goes on n on about how hard it is for her n how she can never get house work done then leaves me with both babies to do her house work n mines a mess, she gets so much help she only really has him 4days aweek! her mum n partner take him fri- sun n im so jelous of how much help she gets n really anoys me how she can says she tired and stressed!