Thanks you lovely folk. Unfortunately I have always had anxiety issues and various medical issues over the last few years suddenly caught up with me, so basically have had some sort of breakdown. This was just before Covid. Ive always been an outgoing person and even been told by quite a few people that I would make a very good counsellor. However, I have been a very poor counsellor for myself. I also feel like a nuisance and of no value any more. Fortunately, I have a very grounded, sensible OH who is more than capable to manage all the things they I was doing at home (except for Finance and Paperwork, which funnily enough I am still doing happily. Unfortunately, I feel worn out most of the time.
I'm glad I offloaded on here, and thanks for understanding.