Its Normal To Feell This Way?

[CallmeA]

I going ask this as a "book excerpt" Please forgive any grammer mistakes. ("him/he" corresponds to the devil/Lucifer)

She always been surrounded with darkness, darkness had rose her, guided her during her whole life. She feels darkness inside her, eating her, she feels she got a dark fate. More and worse than this...not just surrounding her, but this atraction for it, ya know, she "feel him inside her" in her soul calling, and deep down (not so deep) a part of her want answer..... Want the darkness, want him..... She loves God with all her heart, and she tries to be a good, obedient child. She fears pass the whole eternity far from her father, but inside her, deep, deep inside in a dark corner of her soul, her souls, it's like if wants, calls, wishes for him... It's like if he was inside her, in some part of her soul, it's not like a voice tempting you, no, it's a feeling, a calling, he calls for her and she wants him, but she knows what he is, she loves God, she wants go to Heaven, she wants light, not darkness, but inside her, in her soul.... She fight for years against this dark desire, even if there's no scape for her, she will keep fighting! She always could see this similarly between they, hate e despicable for humans, a high ego, a feeling that angels are better than people, a desire for freedom of all, rage, pride...

It's normal? Abnormal? Supernatural?

[Old_Geezer]

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