Dear Nailit, because you have "educated yourself" into opposition to the truths of the Bible, why do you think that precludes you from a relationship with the Saviour? While we are alive, there is an opportunity for us to repent, and find salvation in Jesus, rather than live a live of misery, bitterness, and constant arguing with people whose beliefs we say we oppose. The Apostle Paul himself, was possibly one of the fiercest opposers of Christ, in his day, yet He found that there was nothing in the heart of God against Him when he met a Lover on the Damascus Road. You and I too, can find complete peace, by simply returning to Christ, and finding forgiveness and mercy. God doesn't desire the death of the sinner, but sent His only Son to die to save us from a lost eternity. Greater love has no man than this, than a Man lay down His life for His friends. It would be a tragedy for any one of us to turn our back on the God who loves us, to use our natural thinking and human logic to continually resist and fight against a Creator who Has nothing but the best in mind for us. In the very unlikely event your logic and human learning is right, and God is wrong, does that mean our existence and everything is completely meaningless, pointless, and by sheer chance and co-incidence? Personally, I find, as do countless thousands of others, simple faith, belief, hope and witnessing the millions of lives transformed by Christianity, including a living relationship with the Man Jesus Christ, with not only current salvation (happiness, joy, peace, satisfaction now) and eternal salvation (a future eternity infinitely better than this life), to be a better option. I really hope you find (or rediscover perhaps) whatever it is you are searching for. Best wishes.