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Naomi - Yes I know you study.
After discussing stuff with you for the last fourteen (?) years,
I am fully aware that you are clued up on all sorts of subjects, and are extremely intelligent.
I think, if you really applied yourself to the big questions, you would realise that the experts from science are afraid to abandon their worldview in advancing knowledge, and are duping us.
Play devils advocate with THEM, and you will find them wanting.
There is an agnostic, Professor David Berlinski, both scientist and philosopher, whose lectures and interviews on YouTube are sensibly and logically presented, and I am sure you will find him enlightening.
I am careful not to recommend believing scientists for fear of the risk of bias.