Feeling Really Sad

[paulineward]

I know this might not be appropriate...and I understand that people might think it not the right place or time..etc..etc..but you all seem to be my friends, and I am ending my awful day talking to you all in sad circumstances. I have a rapport with a lot of you, and may seem 'away' for a bit...as after loosing my dear brother last year, got woken up this morning (Monday) to a call telling me of sudden death of my 48 year old younger sister. I regard you all as friends, and as everyone has gone home now, and left me alone...I felt I needed to tell you all. Why I don't know, but I feel we are friends, and if I am worst than I normally am..that is why. Hopefully coming on here will keep a little normality to things for me...hope you don't mind...and hope I've not infringed any rules or standards.
Kind regards to everyone...and thanks for being my friends!...Pauline xxxx

[Christiana]

What Aquagility said is so true. We actually have a lot to thank YOU for. You are a person who gives a lot, I can tell, with more needed - so hard when you're feeling low and despondent yourself, but I do believe that it's in giving that we receive. We have given to you, as best we can, words of love and comfort. We have received so much both from you and each other, knowing there are so many warm, caring people out there. And you started it all off, allowed us to put aside our masks, both the names we use on site, and the emotions we so often keep carefully in check.
God bless and thank you for sharing it all with us.

[Ont-ice]

Good Morning Pauline
Christiana is oh soooo right! You have allowed us to put aside our masks and be 'ourselves' which is something we don't always do we are so busy shielding ourselves and hiding behind all the different masks we wear. You, Pauline allowed us to discard those masks and to reach out to you and to each other. You helped us to become one family, joined together in caring for you and for each other. May we all remember what you did for us and may we stay united and always be grateful to you.
Out of your pain has come a blessing that has affected us more than you could ever know.
Joanna

[paulineward]

Thank you ALL so much, I continue to be deeply moved by the love and care shown on here and the kind words written to me. What a wonderful group of people have come together...I am so lucky to be part of you all.

It is so true that the name's have become people, and that you have shared personal experiences and emotions for others to read and get strength from.

You are right I think, that this has become a close knit family of friends. Friends that I will cherish. If any good can come from such a tragedy, then it has been the reassurance that decent people are still about.

I also feel really humbled to have it suggested that I have helped bring this family of ours closer together. I think you all bring yourselves together with the regular banter and care you show on a daily basis. Thanks anyway.

I think this thread will come to an end soon, but it has been extraordinary.

I will take it day by day for now, as I am so up and down, but hopefully be back on the main threads soon. In the meantime be assured I really do appreciate you all.

Much Love Pauline xx

[JoolsTwo]

Hi Pauline - Just wanted to say I am still thinking about you. I hope things are begining to settle a bit for you now. I know it is still hard for you to come to terms with what has happened. But just know that you are still thought about often. Love Jools xx

[Christiana]

Night Night Pauline

[Ont-ice]

Good night Pauline.

[seekeerz]

Having read the latest posts I'm really lost for words now, all I can do is echo those of Christiana and Ont-ice who've said so beautifully what I feel - in offering our support to you we've all benefitted - we may all be far apart but no longer 'faceless' behind our disguises, you've allowed us to become 'human' in what is an electronic world and we are the better for it.

I hope today is perhaps a little better than yesterday and tomorrow even a little more so - whatever they bring and how ever long it takes, we'll be here, a united group because you've allowed us to become one

with love and prayers always, Steff xx

[paulineward]

Oh my word!! What terrible problems I am having with the internet. BT upgraded me 2 days ago..and I have VERY bad connection now. They reckon there is a fault on the line and are sending an engineer out..so please bear with me. If I do not reply to people , it could be that I can't!

I tried to post earlier, and would not normally be up now, but one of my daughters is a bit off colour. So while I can ...

I realise that this thread will, and should come to a natural end...So in the words of,.. and remembering, one of the greatest Quizmasters..."I've started so I'll finish!"...

You are all so so special, and if I have learnt anything from this tragedy..it is how much friendship means and sustains us all. You have all sustained me, truly.

You are all so dear to me, and I hope dear to each other. Life is so short, shorter for some - like my sister...and even less for many others. It should remind us of our relatively short time on this earth, and the reason to live the moment and create lasting impressions that we leave behind.

You have all left an impression on me, which I am sure you do to the people who know you...let's all go ahead and keep being AB Impressionists! Let's all love and live the moment together.

Thank you all so so much for being there for me and for each of us.
I will try to join in when I can...in the meantime ....Much love to you all.
Your friend..Pauline xxx

[Ont-ice]

Thank you Pauline.
Goodnight and God bless.

[Ont-ice]

Good night Pauline

May I say how nice it was the see your name on the MM links game today.

[paulineward]

Thanks so much for being there ever since this awful tragedy happened Ont-ice. It has really meant a lot to me. Still quite a bit up and down, and have days where it all seems so unreal, but I will get there!
I have been trying to get on line on odd occasions, but am having terrible internet problems. BT are coming out in next few days, as there is a fault giving me intermittent access only.
Hopefully will be fixed soon.
My sincere best wishes to you both, and Look forward to speaking with you in happier circumstances very soon.
Los of love to dear friends..hope you are both well.
Pauline xx

[Catwoman35]

Hi, Pauline. I don't think we've 'met' before but I have just come across your posting and, although it's rather late, I'd like to add my condolences. I too have lost a sibling and know that it's a really special loss. I don't know if you've come across 'The Dash', a poem by Linda Ellis? It's a bit too long to include here but good old Google should do the trick. I only discovered it recently but it holds a lot of truths in its verses - I hope it helps!
Take care,
Lynne