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thanks theland and Mini,
sorry havent been able to chat sooner been doing a 14hr shift today!
My Nf isnt as painful as it sounds, it effects everyone completly differently, nf is like a finger print where everyone who has nf r unique and treated in diff ways.
my nf is ok, there r parts which r sensitive but only hurts when i bump into it, which i tend to protect it really well. thats not the point, the point is im isolating from everyone and everythig, i just dont want anyone to know, then feel sorry for me, bt there are times i need to tell them a reason why i cant do certain things.... such as wearing a sleeveless top, or do phyiscal things. what ever i do, i always have to think.... will this affect me in anyway, will ppl notice that i look diff? etc.... but 80% of the time ppl do notice but they dont ask. though i m fortunate though i can stil do most of the things that normal ppl do. such as drving
back to talking about it to my parents? i dont think so, they dont really understand, the always compare to ppl who r worse off than i am, i cant think it like that, i cant think ... 'well at least he/shes worse than me' thats not the point! im not close to my family, they dot really understand how i feel, when i moan about how crap my life is.... the just answer back....'do somethng about it...' but what they dont understand is that i cant do stuff just like that.... i need to consider whether im actually fit to do it, and 99% of the time im not bcoz im either have low esteem or jst not fit to do it.
hugs xx