Hi MaryKay,
You have my sympathy, I deeply feel for what you are going through and it is indeed truly miserable, I am getting over a break-up, and almost 4 months on, it has got just that tiny bit easier, I think if you manage to get 'closure' it helps alot ! But my ex was such a coward, he treated me very badly yet he took the cowards way out, and left a crappy note - still proves he has not back bone instead of telling someone you loved with some respect and decency even if it is over....there is no nice way of telling someone its over, but the least you can do if you cared an ounce for them is just to swallow your pride and tell them how you feel...I realise not everyone can do this....I exist everyday...trying to keep busy...I wish you every hope you will make it through from these dark days to the sunshine and smile again ! ! There is a guy out there who you are meant to be with and you deserve someone who is not a coward and just genuinely loves you.