Am I Mad?

[nailit]

I seriously think I'm mad. Ive had a few 'wobbley pops', granted but I dont feel normal. I know some of my thought processes arnt right. (thats why i drink, im trying to blot out the cr*p in my head). I get through most days appearing-and feeling-quiet normal and then I get these black moods where I feel capable of anything. It scares me. Ive been prison before because of whats happened when I get these 'moods' and yet no matter who I try to tell it falls on deaf ears. Its always 'address your alcohol problem' when in real life I drink to find some relief from my head, if only for a night...like tonight. I have a care co-ordinator with the mental health service but trying to get an appointment with him is like knitting fog. Have tried to contact him several times in the last few weeks but he doesnt return calls. The way my thoughts have been in the last couple of weeks really scares me. I'm afraid of what I might do. To others or myself.
perhaps I am really just a loony tune....

[nailit]

thanx boxy. A bit drunk but still browsing....

[Psybbo]

nailit, I wish you all the best and, believe me, I really sympathise with you trying to get help. I have been trying to get social services all afternoon, continually engaged then when I got a ringing tone, the other person hung up, three times

[nailit]

psybbo, thanks for reply. Had some experience with social servives a few years ago. Dont envy you... Family wreckers is my abiding memory of them.