So very sorry, tears welling up as I type. Please comfort yourself that he died feeling loved, safe and comfortable. Our very darling little girl wandered from the garden and died in a snare - we still can't forgive ourselves that the gate was left open. It is hard. 'The more you put into a dog, the more it hurts when you lose them' was said to me by our very understanding vet. It's true. Time does help. I've started looking around the refuges for another little one in need, but it has taken 2 years. Perhaps you can make another little life better in future? That would be a fitting tribute. Sympathies. xx