Anal diazapam update

[tamirra]

Morning, tried the diazapam after plucking up the courage last night, it stung like hell when i used it, but that soon wore off, waited and waited and waited some more, then i fell asleep, lot of good that was, back to the drawing board i say lol. Hope your all ok, well better than me anyway. Take care. xxx

[China Doll]

Well did you instigate sex and/or tell your partner this was what you planned to do?

[jno]

yes, you need to be working on this together.... what were you waiting for exactly? If he was down at the pub, he might not have got the message.

On the plus side, you now know how it works on you, which may make you feel a bit less tense about it next time.

[tamborine]

tam - have you tried the booze route; just until you're over the worst?

[tamirra]

I didn`t tell him what i had done, i wanted to see what reaction i had from using it, was that a silly thing to do, again, maybe i thought if it worked and relaxed me i might have to have sex, thats probally the reason i didnt tell him :(.......... as for the booze route, no not done that yet either, another :(

[boxtops]

I hope your GP knows what you are doing, diazepam is strong stuff...! Good luck!

[tamirra]

Boxtops, long story, but he gave me the diazapam. x

[jno]

okay, you know how it feels now, so that's good, not silly. Next thing to do is tell him when you're about to try it again.Remember, he loves you, he's not going to do anything to hurt you; but he's part of this too and you need to share it. (Deliberately not telling him suggests you don't trust him, though he's done nothing to deserve this.)

[tamirra]

No jno he dosn`t deserve it, but is it really worth trying again if it didnt do anything other than make me tired and fall asleep, i can do that without using diazepam?

[jno]

if you do it without using diazepam, then how do you know the diazepam made you do it? My guess is that if you'd been making love to your husband you would not have fallen asleep.

As to whether it's worth trying again - well, only you can decide. Do you want a sex life with your husband or not? Does he want one? How hard are you prepared to try? How easily are you prepared to give up?

[Dris]

I agree with everyone and jno -I would zonk as well if I didnt have something or someone to keep me awake.

Now you know that effect then you'll be more relaxed -im sure you are trying but its a 2way street and practising (so to speak) on your own perhaps isnt the way to to do it.I nclude hubby next time and hey you never know even a cuddle and foreplay might relax you -remember - baby steps.Wish you well :)

[tamirra]

Yes i know what you mean, i may have fallen asleep without the diazapem, but i just took it that it was this that made me tired as thats what its meant to do, relax you. I do want a normal relationship, normal sex life, and normal feelings without being frightened all the time that it will lead to sex, even just having a cuddle, can most of the time run to sex, but i dont want this everytime, he seems to get so frustrated that when we snuggle up one thing turns to another, which then i get tensed up and i cant do anything amd enjoy it. xx

[Dris]

Yeah you get it as it absorbs quickly.My daughter had it as she had sever seizures when she was younger (didnt have to use it thankfully as she always came round reasonably quickly) but its cos she wouldnt have been able to take it orally.

Think in tamirras case it would help to go to the the lower half quicker as she spasms.

[tamirra]

Thank you Dris for explaining why i stick it up my bottom xx

[poodicat]

Hi tamirra i dispense anal diazapam for one of our guys and when he his settled he is very very sleepy

[tamirra]

Hi Poodi xx
Yeah thats what happened to me, so what it was meant to do didnt happen. xx

[China Doll]

It didn't happen because your partner didn't know tamirra. Much as you might not like my answer, the problems (understandably) remain with your concerns over intimacy. These need to be addressed at the same time as using the drug, I'm afraid just taking the drug won't magically change the situation. You still need to address your other emotional issues.

[jno]

China's right. If you want sex on your own, go ahead. You may not even need the diazepam. (Incidentally, can you do this alone? No need to answer that here, but being able to do it with yourself is often a useful forerunner to being able to do it with someone else.) If you want it with him, though, he has to be involved. And if you can take the pill but can't tell him you've done so, then it's the trust issues with him that need to be worked on first.

From what you've said it rather sounds as if you're still looking for ways of avoiding sex rather than ways of having it. If this is so (and only you can say for sure); and pills can't cure that.

[tamborine]

drink a bottle of wine - dont insert it