You must see your doctor - you can't carry on like this and it's dangerous to just quit cold turkey. See your doctor and get the help you need. You should also be aware of something called varices, which are like varicous veins in your esophagus, caused by drinking. These may be where the bleeding is coming from, but if they rupture you can bleed to death. I repeat again, see your doctor urgently. If you feel the need to talk once you have started treatment, by all means come back, but please, please see your doctor. Good luck x