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Sure Wingers, i know that the pros and cons will balance out eventually, and i hear plenty of positive stories such as your sisters, i think i just woke up with a reality check this morning. I have got a big spooky to face, that is all it is, stepping into the unknown.
Incidentally, i won't bore everyone with this but, i met M. on a penpal site i had joined but as i was plagued with scammers, never used. She was having a hysterectomy and wanted some penpals whilst she was recovering. I thought she was a scammer and i wrote the most vile and disgusting reply to her, i feel sick when i remember it, thinking it would see the scammer off. She replied to me saying "I think we should start again". I nearly died when i realised what i had done, then found out how lovely she is. She is a christian and always calls it a miracle, it was a very strange introduction i am sure.
I am glad W. that you get your sister back for a while, that will be v.nice, and the kiddie!