Marriage problems

[Shanes]

Ok here it is. A couple of years ago I was caught cheating on my husband. And we split up,but not long we got back together,but I was still not happy so just reasonly I started talking to the same man again and I have not cheated on my husband with him, but I am with someone else. Me and this other guy has known each other for a long time, but I have two kids and he knows just as well as the other guy I will never leave my husband, because I don't want them to have a weekend dad. My husband had a weekend dad and he wasn't happy either. My marriage is not what it us to be. I love my husband, but our sex life and our compasion is not like I would like it top be. I have tryed talking to my husband about. I need to be held more and kissed more, but nothing ever works. So the guy I am seeing he gives me that. I know I am wrong, but what do I do? I don't want to be without my husband we have been together so long, but I love the festion from the other guy. And for the one I just talk to I love to here his voice I melt inside.But I can never be with him like we want to. Help